The ego-self consists in our tendency to constrict and turn in on our own pain, suffering, desire and self-interest. It has a very "leaden," heavy feel, and can seem claustraphobic. However, the goal of the spiritual life is not to get rid of the ego, but to suddenly be able to SEE THROUGH it to the spacious divine Reality lying beyond and within it. In other words, the ego-self become translucent! An example of this reality would be the process of feeling tight and alone in our unfulfilled desire, and then suddenly awakening to see that our desire for fulfillment is actually translucent to the desire of Divine Fulfillment for us!
Since the goal of the cosmos seems to be wonder and surprise, we might say that the Ultimate Mystery - present within us - takes great delight in seeing our tight, claustraphobic ego-self suddenly become translucent to spacious love. Indeed, we (and God) could never appreciate the beauty of spacious awareness and love unless we first experienced egoic tightness, and then watch as it magically becomes translucent to the Beyond!
Photo: Globeflowers at Skinny Fish Lake; Flattops Wilderness, CO; June 15, 2013
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